had a clan match with shiun's friends today at dhoby ghaut. and we went to stay over at darren's house ytd just to discuss our strategy cos a bet was involve. when i 1st saw the opponent's team, i was totally stunned. the 1st thing they said wasnt hi, but asked "your want bet how much? 50? 100?" they sound damn confident and i were thinking it was a wrong move to meet them out in the 1st place. then when we were in the lanshop, i kinda heard them said that they were the wcg top 10 teams, which makes me felt totally hopeless. then still got so many rules somemore, lycan was banned in all draft matches and each team was allowed to choose 4 heroes to ban. then we started drafting and we started our match. ended up in a draw anyway. 1 win and 1 lose. so each team paid for their own lan fees.
anyway, i have not been studying these few days. keep going out. fri, sat and just came back today. tmr still going out and tuesday still going swimming. omg, im feeling more and more stressful as the Os come nearer and nearer. my parents just keep saying that i nvr study, stress what? but thats the point. its because i nvr study, thats why im stressing. im afraid that i will lag behind and everyone is pia-ing their studies, and what am i doing? still playing? this term's report was kinda screwed as well, l1r5 31. and prelims... its gone-case although i studied. maybe im still nt working hard enough. wheres my motivation? like what helen chew says, maybe im nt hungry enough? knowing whats my aim in poly, i still dont feel like studying. ARGHH. what am i supposed to do then? if i really end up in ite, i think i will just give up on life man. im just wasting my time away now... can anyone really understands what im currently going through? reverse psychology just doesnt work on me, so stop saying that i cant do it.
and im really sorry to those that i scolded ytd. wasnt in the best of mood so i just take on any chance there is to let it out. im sry SK & YZ. and SK, u are right. i shouldnt be playing for now, studies are what matter.
im going insane with all the people around me studying. studying just makes me feel that im wasting my youth away.. and the fact that how O lvls grading scheme works just makes this world even more cruel. they compared the people in the whole nation with a graph drawn and they start cutting it up, and grade on whos getting distinction and stuff. its so competitive that people's relationships may get tenser by the day. the person next to u may be the one that snatches the A's from u. whats this la? we are humans and not some other stuffs. just drawing a graph and rank the people are just not right. but probably, this is how the society works as well. everyone's so realistic and i wouldnt want myself to end up being one of their clones.
this coming tuesday is 'N' lvls exams alrdy. good luck darrence and darren, i have faith that your can do it. prove the people around u wrong and dont let them get u down.
random pic of the day:
sleeping beauty. xD
this nation's education system
was wrong right frm the start.
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