today's outting with jess and amanda's super sian. wth, this is the 1st time i come out thats so boring la. if not for that stupid jess, i wouldnt have been here, damn it. met at 2.30 at cityhall. then after eating at the foodcourt at marina square, just walk around aimlessly, then they shop and shop, then i sian. zzz, then ended up in a shop with lots of machines to grip the teddy bears out one, dont know whats it called la. then stupid mei and amanda see those small small bread and donuts keychains in the machine then want. and mei and i promised ytd that we will not spend any money today except for food, then if anyone spent, we are entitled to slap the opposite party to prevent them frm spending. and i dont really bear to slap her so in the end, she ended up spending 15bucks just to get 3 buns keychain. wth =.=. then amanda's nth better, 6 bucks for a hotdog mianbao keychain and a bun keychain. and i see them trying to get until so xin ku, also throw money in to help them get it, zzz... stupid mei, u owe me 15 slaps =)

anyway, after seeing my sister's tags, i kinda realise ive lost myself. i remember that i dont used to be so rebellious, and i dont talk to my parents and sisters with such a harsh tone. last time, whenever my parents ask to buy something or do something, and i dont do it, there will be this sense of guilt, so i will end up doing or buying it. but now, this guilt just dont exist anymore. it seems to disappear totally. when they ask me to do something that i dont feel like doing, i will just act as if i didnt hear them. then whenever they nag at me for things that i think i didnt do or dont think its wrong, i will just shout back at them. although i know that this isnt right, i just couldnt control or stop myself. even though at times, i did tried to tell myself that i should obey and respect them, but it just doesnt seems to work.. and i really think that study's a waste of time, i just couldnt stop myself frm thinking this way, though i know thats the only way out of our current financial status... hais.. when hav i become like this? and omg, i actually felt happy at times that i go against my mum =.= guess im becoming kinda sick. anyway, if u could see this, i apologize to u. u know who u are -.-

and wtf! WILD WILD WET'S CLOSED FOR RENOVATION TILL 1ST OCT! DAMNNNNNNNNNN! so we've decided to change the venue to jurong east swimming complex. currently confirmed going - sk, kiayong, zk and me. bert deciding. kingyew dont know. then after that, we will be going to suntec to look and try out clothes for prom, but not buying though. just look for the kind we gonna buy.

oh ya 1 more thing, im not despo for prom, stupid mei. =.=

picture of the day :

stupid handkerchief i got from the machine -.- the bell's given by jess cos they think that ive got an obsession for bells, and i dont =D


this vid's super lame. LOL.




because of you i've escaped my mundane life.