sian... today's kinda the last day of sch whereby everybody will assemble in the classroom alrdy. and now, im feeling kinda lost. i dont know why but there's this sense of emptiness deep inside, somewhere. it's a mixed feelings of happiness and sadness and i hate this. now that i think of it, i won't really be that excited when O lvls end, cos that will mark an end to the 4 yrs of my sec life, and everything that's done in sch. it will be the beginning of us drifting apart. it's just complicated to put it in words. u may say that we can still meet out, but it just feels different. u just cannot deny this cruel fact. one very gd example would be my pri sch friends, all the promises to meet out just vanished into thin air. at the beginning, still gt meet out. then, everybody started to become more and more busy, and it becomes increasingly difficult to find a time whereby everyone is free. so... the amount of times and the number of ppl just drp and drp, till now.. we hardly even talk on msn. and when u dont talk for a very long time, it just feels awkward to start a convo with them. all the more now, all my friends are going to jc, which will make them even more busy. it really looks like history is gonna repeat itself, no matter how i try to deny.

and everyone have something that their lives revolve around. like lao kang, he's revolves around his studies and future job. i believe a lot of ppl's same as him. but for me, i dont really care about my studies and my future occupation, as long as i can survive, that will be enough. rather, i put more importance in the ppl around me. friendship and kinship are what matters to me most. for me, i always have a hard time making friends and the last day of sch kinda destroy all the friendships that i've fought so hard for. and i will have to start all over again, which is really tiring. that is why i hate the last days of everything, it sucks.

in sch today, i just know how hard u guys are trying to motivate me to study. it's great to have u ppl as my friends although i may seem as if i dont appreciate it, but i do. i maybe always saying that u cant make it but actually, i know that u can. so i really want to wish everyone thats reading, all the best, cos i dont want to see anyone in my poly, that is if i can end up in one =.= and u are right, it's true that u should let your friends know where they stand =D

and theres gonna be a 2f'06 dinner tmr? didnt expected there to be one though. haha.

i shan't say much about what happened in sch today cos nth really special happened, it's mundane as it is. so cut the crap for pictures.

took some retarded pictures since there's no one in the canteen. and it's the last day anyway.


drawn by me for a sec 2 junior's (not mine) artwork. im so proud of myself. lmao.


LOL GAY. LEWIS SENT ONE. XD. 1:37's the funny part =.=




if it's just living without finding any answers.