fear of the unknown. mankind fear whats unpredictable and uncontrollable. we have the need to be in control of every aspect of our life but the unknown denies us of this. and death is probably the biggest unknown to us.

i saw my dad's eyes turned red when he picked up that call from my aunt regarding my ahma. i know that he is holding the tears back because he probably wouldnt want me to be affected or see him in that state. the worst thing is that he cannot go and visit because he has to work! how sad is that? this is how cruel reality is.

just 4 months ago i lost my granduncle. god pls spare some grace on us. i cant afford to lose another family member. pls.