self consciousness and self esteem. i understand how kash feels. its hard to build up confidence in yourself and ive been trying to do so for many years now. but still, i cant help but get so self conscious at times. and when it comes, it will get so damn sensitive that every words seems to cut. self esteem drops and we are back in the same vicious cycle. i kinda miss those primary sch days when i just do anything without caring about the opinion of others. thats freedom.

overall, today's presentation turned out quite good. have been learning the use of Adobe After Effects for the whole week, and the effort paid off i guess. i was actually satisfied that im able to edit my clip to the pacing of the music, and yes, i can feel the connectiong between the clip and me.

and happy bday zhaolin! went to celebrate just now. had dinner at suntec and we were off to board the flyer. didnt know we will managed to board one at 10pm, and it was my 1st time getting on it. the 4 of us tgt with 1 stranger couple had the whole carriage to ourselves. its really a nice experience to realize that sg is this small, and cars on the highway are like ants on a branch. it just feels so peaceful inside there, sitting on the floor and looking at the night sky and street lights of sg. im just a mere, tiny existence.

and thanks to those who stood by me. screw up and u will see who your friends really are.